I had one of those (inevitable) practice times today where the kids in the rooms around me were whipping out this INCREDIBLY phenomenal music with mind-boggling virtuosity (as usual), and there I was trying to work out my THREE BRAND NEW PIECES which are way beyond my skill level to date. I've attached a link to hear the 1st mov't of the Schubert sonata, which is the doozy! It's not the whole thing, but you get the idea (for some reason I can't post a YouTube video on here... help, Claire?).
Sonata in C minor
I honestly don't know how I'm going to do this. I have never, up to this point, possessed a skill level high enough to master this kind of stuff. And not only am I doing these pieces, but my teacher has completely revamped all of my technical work, and is requiring me to not only play in a whole different style, but... for instance... in my Rachmaninoff piece she erased all my fingering and wants me to have several ways I play it! I feel like I have absolutely nothing familiar to practice that sounds any good right now. A necessary stage (it's always the WORST when you're first learning these monsters all at once), but daunting nonetheless.
I honestly don't know how I'm going to do this. I have never, up to this point, possessed a skill level high enough to master this kind of stuff. And not only am I doing these pieces, but my teacher has completely revamped all of my technical work, and is requiring me to not only play in a whole different style, but... for instance... in my Rachmaninoff piece she erased all my fingering and wants me to have several ways I play it! I feel like I have absolutely nothing familiar to practice that sounds any good right now. A necessary stage (it's always the WORST when you're first learning these monsters all at once), but daunting nonetheless.
On the other hand, I'm still feeling so blessed to be here. Heard another concert today by one of the piano profs... I don't even know how playing like that is POSSIBLE... it was almost superhuman! And we had our first choir rehearsal tonight... wow. This is so fun. The quality of the music program here is amazing (not that I have anything to compare it to, really!).
Okay, I have to do some more of the UNENDING STREAM of theory homework, but I just wanted to reach out for some sort support! Can any of you magically make me a better musician?!?!?! 'Cause if you can, let me know. I really need to be one by tomorrow, if possible.
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You are amazing....and your teacher wouldn't be requiring lots of you if she knew you couldn't do it. We are with you, and so is Jesus. One day at a time....
AND isn't it great to be in a place where you can just dedicate yourself to all of this? (minus the psych).
You may not even recognise yourself or your playing by the end of this!
Love you SOOOOOOOO much.
And keep chuckling to myself as I recall: "A shorter fellow. With a completely shaved head." Hahahahaha! Ryan is really hoping that one day his head won't be PARTIALLY shaved, let alone FULLY.
We are praying for you.
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